The year is about to end. A fresh new year is about to begin. A new chapter of my life is about to unfold. What lies ahead of me? Will there be a change? Will I accept the change? Or will I just stand up in the same place I’m standing on right now?

                I could still remember those tormenting months I had when my mom and I used to have a feud. Our fight really made a drastic change in my life - it was actually a catastrophe. I have neglected my studies and my responsibilities; I’ve lost myself and almost lost my faith. It didn’t only affect my life, but the lives of those who cared for me as well. It really made a deep cut into my heart that I thought it would be impossible to heal. But those events made my life more meaningful, it made me see the real beauty of a simple yet complicated life. It made me stronger than I was before. And lastly, it made me learn how to forgive.

            Where I am and what I’ve become right now is all because of the things that happened in my past and with the help of our good Lord. Perhaps, I’ve lost a lot, I’ve lost too much. Yet, I have gained something that will always be with me and will never be taken away from me… That is having the courage and will to forgive the ones who once hurt me inside.

            It wasn’t easy, but I did. Forgiveness made my heart feel light as a feather floating in the open air. It was indeed an enlivening and wonderful feeling.

            Past is past as the cliché goes, but the past shouldn’t be forgotten because it molded me in to what I am today. The scars are still visible, nonetheless, my heart is happy and wound-free. Those traces of a bitter yesterday will always be there to remind me of the things that happened along my journey. Those scars are there to show me how strong I’ve become, how I’ve handled the trials that were given to me, and how I’ve managed not to give up and keep going even when everything is getting tougher each day. 

            My past gave me a positive outlook of life. These painful events made me a better and stronger person. These bitter-sweet memories that I have will always remain in me as I cherish the time I call today.

            The year is about to end. A few hours from now will be the start of 2008. Will I have a fresh start? Of course…yes. My heart is free from resentment, and I’ve yielded all the burdens inside me. Nothing beats the feeling of having a happy heart to start a new year.

            Have a happy new year everyone! I hope each and every one of us will have a fruitful and blessed year ahead of us. ^_^

Not long ago, I made a wishlist of the THINGS I wanted to have this Christmas - things that are unattainable or nearly impossible to have. Anyway, it was made out of boredom. I always know I can only have them this Christmas when I see a pink pig fly.

For this holiday season, I got a nice tag from my fellow blogger Lolli.
So here it is MY GROWN-UP CHRISTMAS WISH:
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   Just by reading the title, I know you know what I will be talking about. Perhaps the title itself will prompt you to click the red x on the upper right corner of your screen.

    I know, I know… this is boring and clichéd. No matter how banal this kind of topic can be, the fact that we REALLY DON’T BOTHER minding matters like this at all, I guess we need a bit of poking… come to think of it, maybe a light reading can lighten up our hearts especially that Christmas is in the air.

    The cold December breeze is once again coming our way, the gradual charge of wind suddenly turned people surprisingly generous or should I say big cash burners. We all think of Christmas as a magical time of the year where we rush and hurry shopping for gifts to give our love ones and for ourselves as well, we eat, drink and party like there’s no tomorrow, then we gain a few extra pounds, and as expected, we tend to become nicer and be more positive in any way. This season is the reason why families gather, friends reunite, and enemies reconcile. It’s actually the most wonderful time of the year because it is the only time when we can have all the fun and spend a whole lot of money without being guilty at all. ◄Continue reading…

    September…October…November… December…

    Ah, the BER months tell us something… it’s almost Christmas once again. Malls are now getting filled with fancy stars and glittery balls. Christmas lights are almost everywhere. The Christmas carols are playing in my head once more. Godfathers are nowhere to be found . Naughty kids are becoming nice.
I’m pretty sure, everyone wants something for Christmas.
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